i wish for.
for the first time, i wanna do something about myself.
maybe what shijia said somehow triggers me inside.
i know, i should start planning what i wanted in life all along.
how to get a better future for my family especially queen.
having a income of 1.5k isn’t enough afterall.
still, i have to try harder & get higher pay.
for many times in life, i think i’d never really succeeded before.
but i really hope, i can do this just for once.
i wanna go overseas to study.
i know queen will be damn worried.
just like now sis is overseas for 2weeks.
but, i really wanna further my studies.
not in singapore, but other countries.
if i’m given the opportunity now, i’ll sure accept it without much consideration.
& i know, i can’t always rely on queen too much.
yes, i’ve to grow up though i didn’t wanna to.
what should i do?
there’s alot of things left behind.
& i don’t wanna leave it behind.
one week.
i don’t know what’s wrong with me.
but i couldn’t sleep last night.
tossing & turning, what ever came into my mind was the things you said.
i know it’s was nothing. just merely a casual remark from you.
but, i was really really really affected.
i almost cried last night thinking about it.
i know i was damn bad to be treating you like this.
but somehow, i couldn’t. i couldn’t make myself to stop reflecting.
i’m sorry.
i didn’t know i’d made you feel that way.
=\
sigh.
it must be moodswing.
i so hate this feeling.
SHAG!
had been really busy with work stuffs these whole week.
it’d really been such a mess that i dread to work almost everyday.
my darling actually did this when claudia just nice walked in. XD so paisae!
ohwell. she’s my sweetest girl. ❤
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tradeshow had made me looked like a walking zombie.
with OT & more OT everyday.
i got home almost like 11pm that whole week. >.<
i’m dying.
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weekend probably should be the only day i can enjoy myself so well.
yesterday, i met up with bi.
walked around in town. shijia & ryan saw us luh!
damnits.
after that went boat quay meet bi’s friends.
=)
i had some drinks! damn shiok man.
soonafter, darren came fetch me.
we went singing! with weijie & one of his friends.
cocked up wordpress.
i can’t upload image already because they’re having error.
=.= soon soon okays!
after singing i went to find bi again! XD
talked like like 6plus then i cabbed home.
iheartsyoubaby.
nobodycaneverreplaceyou. =)
01 Sept 05
i always thought that it’s people who’s drifting away from me.
i never know that, it’s me; who is drifting away from people.
i almost cried just now seeing cs.
because, it’s really been sucha long time since i saw him.
my heart is sinking badly.
fuck.
jerk&slut
don’t be such a bitch or bastard..
remember, there’s always something called ‘ retribution ‘.
no need to label me.
no need to care about how my life goes.
because,
it’s none of your fucking business.
=)
i’ve seen much human.
but never know in this world,
there’s such YOU people.
get a life man!
ihatetowrite
darling s.jia, everything’s gonna be alright. =)
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girls are dumb. because they always do things to make themselves unhappy.
&, i’m one of them right now.
i went to read ken’s past posts. i must be mad! LOL.
so, was it Mag? =X HAHAHA.
alright, will be fine in 5mins time.
still, i ♥ you.
TAN
people used to say same surnames cannot be together.
& that’s the reason why, i always tried not to fall in love with someone that has the same surname as me.
=(
but i guessed, i broke it.
i don’t know.
how people will think?
maybe, it’s kinda superstitious to be bothered about this kinda stuff.
but queen told me that day that she doesn’t encourage it.
if you love someone, & that person does have the same surname as yours.
what wil you do?
i really don’t wanna think about it.
because i really wanna last with that boy of mine.
ken
yes. & i finally get over that stupid asshole, bastard, jerk who owes me $$$ and wont admit! – by shijia
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i’m not feeling well. =( i feel damn nauseous now.
fuck man. what’s wrong with me.
i gotto work OT tonight.
claudia just told me that i’ve got to hang finish all the apparels by tomorrow.
shits. i’m feeling stress already.
weekends are probably my only time enjoying.
sigh.
finally,
i got over my fear to love.
i hope, & really hope. you’ll be the one that never let go.
i love you sweetheart. =)
thislove(: 